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Moving to San Francisco

June 25, 2007

Usually my articles are very pragmatic, but tonight after a few glasses of wine I decided to see if people would be interested in reading a personal article. After graduating college I had ideas of grandeur about how I want to lead my life. Before I knew it I felt like I was treading water living at home, working 9 to 5, feeling less ambitious by the day and the fire that once consumed me to try and make this world better was slowly being muffled by the repetitiveness of every day life.

There was only one good thing that came out of my year at home and that is my girlfriend. I wish we had a sweet story about how we met that so many couples seem to have. The truth is we met at a club danced a little and hit it off instantly. Every time we tell the story we embellish it more and more and im sure in the future it will be complete nonsenseb. Maybe that’s how most people’s meeting stories end up sounding so “romantic” after a few years.

It finally happened and I decided its time to just pick up and go to San Francisco. All of my excuses that once stopped me are gone: not enough money, being far from friends and family, not knowing the city, my “career”, etc. I think I just realized it was fear creating excuses for myself and there is no such thing as a good time to leave. The mind creates reasons for not taking action, but they aren’t real most of the time and that is one of the biggest hurdles that needs to be overcome.  

Some wonder why would I leave when so many things were going well in my life. I have great friends, awesome family, the best girl a man can dream of, I just got promoted, and I save lots of money. The truth is that a few years back I had a life awakening moment. My mind was so focused and life seemed so clear and simple as if I was able to stand outside of myself and see my past and future at the same time. In part, I have to thank my stoner room-ate, although I do not smoke, I think the second hand smoke got to me. Mix that with a few extreme events in your every day life and you get a potent slap in the face that wakes you up from a long dream in which you had no control over.

I long for that feeling again. I am hoping being in a new environment will restart those emotions that were my driving force for so long. Off I go to San Francisco to explore new people and new places and hopefully build the life that I desire.

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